Sunday, October 4, 2009

A good mood…..

Image080 A rarity in my life, but i try my best not to chase it away whenever really see it coming. Called up a few people just now… but that seems to be because i was in a nice tune today. Maybe it’s the after effect of going out in the rain. The weather has been  good since last eve…… raining n all. And just add to the surprises, the light wen out for a few hours too. Darkness and rain r supposed to make people grim i think. But in Pune they have a different effect on me. It is the time to socialize in the hostel….. everyone comes out of their room… maybe to enjoy the power cuts. It is usually better if it’s a sunday the next day.. u can sleep late at night of course .

And now it’s sunday and i m sitting in front of my screen , listening to Sheryl croe ‘Love is free’ , my room looks clean after a hell of a weak , my copy of sundayHT is lying on my bed , and i have little homework left ….. My other self would be jealous if i read this page someday else.Went to watch ‘Wake up Sid’ with Irshad this morning, it was much refreshing. Reminds me of my first movie here ‘Jane  tu ya jane na’ ……. the rain was the same , it was  sunday , and i was tired. It was fresher term…. and my whole body was aching like hell. I agreed to a movie , partly because i would be able to sit comfortably for a couple of hours. Others were going shopping n all. I still remember that magical effect it had on me….. i dropped my idea of leaving AFMC after that movie, in a hope that sundays would keep coming….

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I wish i were at home .......

These prep leaves can be excessively boring , we did all of it ........ saw movies , read a lot of ebooks , played football in rain ..... almost everything u can imagine doing on a summer vacation. The only difference is that ...... this is not a vacation . I should have been studying all this time to improve my ranks, or maybe make sure i pass . I know people are not happy with U2 , and it sends a coldness down my spine everytime ..... possibly it prepares us for the worst , that's why this sort of reflex has been picked up in the course of evolution. And when i say 'course of evolution' , i see myself nose to nose with reality that my speech has become full of cliches lately....

I m in a sort of a tangled mindset , as i mostly am. And this blog sometimes seems like Dr. Seward's diary ( the psychiatrist in the book 'Dracula' ). Bram stroker did almost everything to display him as a model shrink , which is what most probably i too am becoming.

AFMC is probably the last college under MUHS whose pracs will be taken ....... many of the colleges have already gone on vacation , and we are left in this frustrating situation. I wish , next time they grant a small holiday to the students , if the time tables are as bad as this year.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Khalil Gibran and my passion for his writings.......

I downloaded that e-book quite enthusiastically ......... only to learn later that my phone cant display it completely..... much to my dismay........ i was a real time big fan of khalil gibran.

I remember it was class 9, when puneet pulled something out in yhe library and came over to me ... " see ... philosophical book..... u should read this actually ". that was the first time i read Him. It was the same book whose story i told to 'her' and she said .... "Mayank , u sometimes surprise me ...... as if ........ " . I kept hold of khalil gibran for years. Now i m acctually dieing to read his another work.

The most beautiful things in the life are at once simple and plain. This is the same thing i c in his writings. I never tried to copy his style although ............ it would not work . i m not a saint yet............

Friday, February 20, 2009

The poet who survived.........


I was calm on that day ..... as usual. I knew there is a competition coming up , and i had to write something .......... atleast something , because it was over 10 am and i was the only entry registerd from AFMC. For my big relief , some AFMCites joined later....... so i was not the only one to blaim for defeat. And thus began the Hindi Poetry Competition...........

I had several topics , out of which i m not sure why did i picked up this one. Maybe it was a little contemporary to me at the time. Anyways..... here is what i wrote -

Mrigtrishna

haan haan tum meri mrigtrishna ho,
jeevan ki antim abhilasha ho .

jitna khojo , gum ho jaati,
paas aakar bhi door chali jaati.
jaane kyon ye mayajaal bichhati,
akaaran hi pyase man ko tarsati.

ek boond jal ki aasha mein,
main raha bhatakta kahan kahan.
sambhav ho to pyaas bujha do,
raah main takta khada khada.

tum ho pratah ki pratham prarthna,
tum hi ratri ki antim aarti.
haan haan tu hai ishwar meri,
tum man mandir ki dev murti.

tum chanchal, suraj ki pahli kiran jaisi,
dekh tumhe chaal hui hai hiran jaisi.
fir bhi ! fir bhi ye dard ye chubhan kaisi,
na sahi kabhi peed janmo janam aisi.

haan haan tum ho, tum ho meri nazaron mein,
lekin fir bhi bass pyaas hi hai in adharon pe.
bass ! bass ab aa jao jeevan mein,
khila do upvan is soone man ke aangan mein.

haan haan tum meri mrigtrishna ho,
jeevan ki antim abhilasha ho .



The poem was eventually able to win me an ice-cream, when i sang it on a mike for a senior's girlfriend later that afternoon. The competition was one by a KMC guy , whose poem i actually admired very much.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

One man show....

I read about it in the Silhouttes brochure, and at first wondered about the people who will be performing..... U know i was a little enthusiastic abt the idea that i may be able to see Amit Kumar Singh sir on stage , or maybe R R Mahakud sir will dazzle us again with his show...

It was i think two days before the show that Shikha Pandey mam 'informed' me that i m going on stage...

Dumbstruck... i made a hunt for ideas, struggling with anxiety , sleeplessness and occasional hypoglycemia... i managed to mix Mr. Bean with Mahakud sir's idea and a childish story from Avijeet, and made my original 'Pappu's story'. No comments on the name plz !. AFMC people alredy know the reason behind this strange name....

It went just average , besides the fact that less than 20 people from U2 were there to see it. I got some mixed reactions......

AKS sir : arrey bhai , tune kiya kya tha ..... main to backstage se dekh hi nahin paya yaar !
Shikha mam ( on Backstage ) : Really amazing ! i m sure u r in competition for the first prize.
Althamus ( Audience ) : Quite well, but it became a little tox in the end..
Some batchmate (in the hostel) : really good Pappu ! u performed well. .... i heard it from someone.... who heard it from........... ....
Some one from audience (during the show) : Ek , Do , Teen , Char.... band karo ye atyachaar !!